I have been home for a few months now but it still borders on surreal. I keep expecting to wake up in a dark metal container so far away from everything I know. A different world...
But instead I wake up in a nice large bed, in beautiful Hawaii, next to my even more beautiful wife. Sometimes, I will sit and look at her and draw her essence into me, a sort of secret ritual I would never tell her about for fear that she would think I'm silly. She is so much to me, she affects every facet of my life, but still I need her more. I wish she could know the depths of my love and care for her. I try and tell her but words seem so insignificant, gestures seem so insignificant. I am strong for her, I am everything for her. Without her I would be an empty shell. Still, I tried to deny at one time, to push her away, but she stayed and it makes me love her even more. I admire her so much. I try and woo her still and make her my whole world. She is my ideal, beautiful and intelligent, feminine but strong, extremely attractive but modest. Her sexuality, while demure at times, drives me wild time after time. She is like a drug, I can't get enough of her. I wish I were a poet so that I could write something befitting of her, worthy of her, but I'm not. I instead try and tell her how much I love her in my own inadequate terms. I love her body, her full curves, her smooth porcelain skin, her more than ample breasts. I could spend all night making love her, and I have on several occasions, and still ache for her. I would pour honeyed words into her ear all day just for a chance to make love with her. She is always on mind, no matter how hectic things get or how stressed I am. Even when I come home from a long and trying day at work, seeing her always lifts my spirit. I still try and impress her everyday. I love her laugh and sense of humor, I love spending time with her and hearing what she thinks about this and that. She is a great match for me, and I don't think there is anyone better suited to me in the whole world.
I love you, Brandie.... always and forever.