Published on January 13, 2005 By Texas Wahine In Personal Relationships
I love you so very much. I would die for you. I would kill for you. I would crawl through miles of broken glass for you. My love for you has no end . . . it stretches out to eternity and it doesn't end there. My love for you is unconditional. No matter where you go in this world or what you do, it will always be there for you.

I love you, but . . . if the thought of staying with me makes you feel trapped and uneasy and sick and awful, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if my love doesn't give you strength and if my love doesn't comfort you, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if you resent me for who I am and the choices we've made together, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if what you're really looking forward to is the end of May and not the middle of March, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if you look back on the years we've spent together and you feel cheated or unhappy, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if when you picture us together when both we and the boys are older it doesn't make you smile, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if I cause you more pain and sorrow and conflict than joy and stability, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if my voice, my face, my body . . . if I don't flash through your head throughout the day, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if wearing your wedding ring feels wrong to you and you can't imagine putting it back on, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if the only value and good quality you see in me is that I love your boys and take care of them, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if you only say you love me because you don't want to hurt me, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if you want to do things to sabotage our relationship and drive me away, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if you don't feel you can trust me and share your pain and darkest secrets with me, then let me go.

I love you, but . . . if you don't love me . . . if you don't want me . . . if your greatest desire is to push me away . . .

Let me go.

I don't want to go. I love you more than anything. I want to feel your arms around me and hear you tell me that you love me and that everything is going to be OK. I want to search for any bit of hope . . . anything to hold on to. I want to be the one that you crave . . . I want to be the one that you trust with your love, with your life, and with your secrets. I don't want to go. God, it's the last thing in the world that I want.

But if you don't want me . . . let me go . . . let me move back home to my parents where I can fall apart and someone, even if it's not the person I want, can wrap their arms around me and dry my tears. I can endure anything if I have your love, but if it's gone, don't let me hurt alone. Just let me go.



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on Jan 13, 2005
Go home honey...if he wants you, he'll come get you.
on Jan 13, 2005

Tex...I typed and deleted half a dozen times already.  There's so much I want to say but  I simply can't find the appropriate words. 

I'm here for you if you need me.

on Jan 13, 2005
My eyes are all teary and my there's a ball in my throat. I know what you mean Brandie, i've felt the exact same way. I hope he hears your cry and answers honestly to all your questions. And that the answers are what you are waiting for.

=HUGS=
on Jan 13, 2005
I can honestly say that from what I know of you, it seems only a fool would want to 'let go.'
on Jan 13, 2005

Tex, I hear your cries. I am sorry that I haven't been in closer contact the last few weeks. Our house has been crazy.

I wish I could carry your burdens, even for just a day. You so deserve happiness.

 

on Jan 13, 2005
The weight must be suffocating. My heart aches for you Brandie.
on Jan 14, 2005
I agree with xtine : there's bound to be comfort there with your parents. Who knows?--maybe the opportunity for a renascence. Hold your head high.
on Jan 14, 2005
Do the ifs and buts have merit or is it just vague hope? 
on Jan 14, 2005
My heart goes out to you....I really do hope you get the answers you are looking for and deserve to know....hang in there.
on Jan 14, 2005
Thanks all for the thoughts . . .
on Jan 15, 2005
Give me a break! If only it was that simple to let a woman go. But what the post really means is:

If you have become a total pain in the ass and are stifling my life completely......(as too many fat American women do) then let me go....so I can run to my divorce attorney and screw you out of all your hard earned assets because of America's screwed up divorce laws.

Divorce is always the woman's fault!
on Jan 15, 2005
John~

Actually...I think men like YOU are the cause of divorce.

B~

This is in your court, too, you know? At this point, what do you think would be best? Do you want to spend your whole life wondering what he's doing or wondering what he really feels or wants? I feel like I have all the answers but I know I don't have any. This is your whole family. I really wish I could help you carry some of this, but I know that I'm really naive an unable to. But know that you and your sons and Adrian are in my thoughts and prayers anyway. Maybe if I can't carry some of this, God can.

~Moo
on Jan 17, 2005
I love you, but . . . if my love doesn't give you strength and if my love doesn't comfort you, then let me go.


I love you, but . . . if you only say you love me because you don't want to hurt me, then let me go.


I love you, but . . . if you want to do things to sabotage our relationship and drive me away, then let me go.


I love you, but . . . if you don't feel you can trust me and share your pain and darkest secrets with me, then let me go.


In my last relationship, I spent most of my time trying to make it work. We both knew things weren't going to work our but we didn't want ot hurt each other. So we would say things so we wouldn't. I think the worst thing is saying "I love you and not meaning it" . I thought I ment it when I told her I loved her, but I wasn't sure. Then It just became a habit to say it cause I felt like I was obligated. Alot of things went wrong and things were said and done that couldn't be taken back. I feel really bad about all the crap I did to her but I know that it would be best If I tried not to think about it. Needless to say, that relationship screwed me up big time.

But enough about me, I hope things work out for you and I hope that you find that love that your're looking for. I Wish you the best.

-MX-
on Jan 17, 2005
Anonymous troll: Fuck you . . . now go crawl back under the rock you came from. I love my husband very much and I would never try to hurt him or screw him over.

Marcie: Thanks for the thoughts.

Mada Ecks: I'm sorry to hear about all that. I hope you are able to forgive yourself and let go of your past. Be good to yourself . . . you deserve that.

I appreciate the well wishes. My husband still loves me, I think. We have a lot to sort through, and there's no way to predict the future, but I love him very, very much and I hope that we are able to reconnect when he comes home and that our relationship will be stronger, happier, and more fulfilling than ever before . . . I believe that that can happen.

Thanks again.
on Jan 17, 2005
Give me a break! If only it was that simple to let a woman go. But what the post really means is:

If you have become a total pain in the ass and are stifling my life completely......(as too many fat American women do) then let me go....so I can run to my divorce attorney and screw you out of all your hard earned assets because of America's screwed up divorce laws.

Divorce is always the woman's fault!


If your not part of the JU community, then we could wipe our ass with what you think. No one gives a good god damn about your stupid ass opinion. It's easy to bash someone who is in need of a little support So you can take your opinions and shove um' up your ass you trolling motherfucker

-MX-
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